“You’re all geniuses, and you’re all beautiful. You don’t need anyone to tell you who you are. You are what you are. Get out there and get peace, think peace, and live peace and breathe peace, and you’ll get it as soon as you like.”— John Lennon (via fuckyeahjohnlennon)
I often have a lot to say. Usually I say it to the wrong people. Usually I say it wrong. I used to just say everything to everyone that I wanted to. Now I pick and chose. I think that is part of growing up and becoming an adult. It’s not important for everyone to know what I think. It’s just important that I understand how I feel and I live to learn with it. So now when something upsets me I want to tell someone, sometimes I do but if I can’t I give it a few minutes and I’m not so upset anymore. This seems so simple like I should’ve already figured this out, well I guess it took me a lot longer.
I’m working too much. All I do when I work is think about how I want to do crafts, then when I get home my head hurts, I’m tired and all I want to do is watch Dexter and veg out. I can’t wait for the day when I’m working for nobody but myself.
Ed says I need a blog (I told him I already have one). A blog to promote myself and DirtysLaundry. He bought DirtysLaundry.com for me (isn’t he amazing?) so he’s going to help me get it up and running eventually. I’m excited to do it. I think I’ll make it less personal and more like a zine. I’ll write about a different topic a few times a week like other etsy sellers, bands, artists, and sometimes things about my life. Get people interested in me and what I’m interested in. There is just still so much work to do if I want to be successful.
I’ve been feeling really great about my whole online business thing lately, that is until I started using the etsy forums. I had people critique my shop and I realized that I’m going to not only put WAY more work in (which is to be expected), but I need to learn Photoshop (or Gimp in my case), learn how to use Anthony’s camera, upload items everyday, tag them in ways I don’t even understand, research my materials and so much more. UGH. I just don’t have the time or supplies to do this. I’m not giving up, I’m not shutting it down. I just wish I knew what the fuck I was doing. Plus the biggest hurdle is that I don’t even have my own computer. OVERWHELMED.
I’m so about me right now. ME ME ME. I’ve realized lately that a HUGE part of my anxiety in the past years has been about OTHER people. Friends, boyfriends, family members and employers. Now that I’ve found an amazing man who gives me no anxiety I’ve realized that I need to just care and think about me. So I don’t care what/who you’re doing. I don’t care! I’m so glad that I finally realized that I DON’T FUCKING CARE! My money, my life, my body, my sex, my beliefs, my feelings, my future, myself.
I need more people to follow on here! So please respond and link me to your favorite people you follow, bands you know I like or might like, people you know I like or might like, et cetera. I’ll be very very grateful for it!